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What should I do?
give
in
to pretend
to be
happy
go away
for ever
with a strength
I don’t have
She hurts me
like no one else ever did
I love her
still
I need her
I hate her
I love her
I pity her
I don’t care
about her
She doesn’t deserve
my love
after all
I told her that
She doesn’t say
anything
She screams out
in sarcasm
to her diary
She loved me
once
she says
she is disappointed
she says
not to me
it’s not about me
it was all about her
not us
She makes me
angry
makes me
scream
inside
at her
it’s wrong
all wrong
whatever I do
I stay
she hurts
I go
I break
I decide
I’m torn apart
she doesn’t understand
A great movie about friendship, love, selfishness, egocentric, lies and consequences, sacrifice, identification process and society. Within the story are so many aspect that I feared they wouldn’t be given enough room but the film manages to give them just the attention they need. Especially the development of “the situation” is an unusual one and it gives the movie more depth and reality. I also like that you don’t have to say much (except that “outburst” of Martha which had to be like that because inside of her it explodes and it want to get out). So the scene where Karen runs up to Martha’s room and had to break in. You only see Karen’s face and the shadows, which is also a great picture the shadows of that will always be upon her. It changed her life and not even Joe tries to get her back because he knows she is gone, walked too far to get back to her life. He wants to but he knows she wouldn’t do it.
This film was sadly destroyed and had to be restored. But it was well done so its not that bad. At the end it may disturb the mood because it takes you out of the illusion of the film when you only have a still picture with text especially at the climax and its resolve.
But that’s due to the history of the film not the film itself.
I love the film very much because it tries to explain and tell about the matter of homosexuality and society in a non-judgemental way. A lot of films just have that “mission” to tell people to be tolerant. And they nearly force it on the viewer. Anders als die Anderen does show intolerance and the consequences but it’s not in an “attacking” way. Some may think the scenes of explanation are too long or overly done but I think they show the passion those people (here: the professor) have to explain the topic, to be heard about it and in general make it a public topic. I loved it. It was much to read, which made it a bit overwhelming but it probably is an overwhelming topic . There is more to it then “homosexuality is nothing wrong”. For examples they also explained what transvestites are and that it is something different from being homosexual.
Another scene I really liked (except all between Paul and Kurt, which are just adorable) was in the courtroom. The look on both Paul and his blackmailer and the judge who HAD TO find Paul guilty even though he didn’t want to :-/
No running away,
I’m on my own,
alone,
nothing,
nobody,
have to deal with me,
to distract me
I don’t know how,
thoughts are going nowhere
I did all achievements
I could make
on my own
I’m back
at the beginning
no emotions,
I can’t even feel bad
no direction,
no obsession,
no light
just back breaking
loneliness
I learned much,
I discovered much,
but I am still
young
sometimes I feel
superior,
I am the opposite
so broken inside,
I glued,
but it’s still apart,
no replacement,
no healing,
no sadness
about it,
I just
resign
“You talkin’ to me?”
Besides the fact, that I get the urge to kill that boy it is a pretty good movie. You either can lean back enjoy the whole thing or take a closer look an discover a lot of interesting things. For me the most interesting thing was how Shane feels the urge to be part of the family, trying to be a homesteader even though he knows he isn’t and never will be. After killing Ryker and Wilson he finally accepts that. “There’s no living with a killing. There’s no goin’ back from one. Right or wrong, it’s a brand… a brand sticks. There’s no goin’ back. Now you run on home to your mother and tell her… tell her everything’s alright. And there aren’t any more guns in the valley.” This also shows the ambivalent situation the westerner is in. In order to protect the “civilized world” he has to become an out-law. It is also impressive how much the homesteaders express to the audience that frontier law and state law is something different. You are on your own and have to find a way to protect yourself, your family and your land.
Ryker’s counterpart – Shane – is a men very similar to Joe, only he had to chose the gun, which you see when both talking to each other on the farm. That means the only difference between a homesteader and a person, who had to be excluded of society due to his actions (which were unlawful methods in order to protect society), is the gun. (on a site note: it’s really interesting that this frontier justice is still within the American society)
But Ryker himself is kept with depth and the ability to learn. This is shown in an impressive scene when in his dealings with Joe he doesn’t simply cross the river at the “final invitation”
All in all a well done western. My recommendation: watch it.
from a shadow I have become me
on the way I’ve lost myself
hiding from me,
am I on my way back to myself
and becoming me
or loose it all
to myself?
As I wander through the dark metal corridors I keep thinking to myself this is as much alive as I am. I’m not as cold as this structure but just as indifferent. Grey where ever I look and the same artificial light that also shines in my life. My feet make a hollow sound, I like it. It’s wide and just as it fades away I want to tell it to wait for me. Take me with you, wherever you go! But I’m here and this oppressive ambiance doesn’t seem to end. I get use to it, I even like it. The walls look so innocent I want to touch them. Make sure they are real before they fade into the twilight. Just like the world around me I try to connect to. My hand runs over it but I hardly can feel anything. I knew I wouldn’t but I always try because I have hope that one day I will.
When I exit the tunnel sweltering darkness welcomes me. I’m home.
300 (2006)
I’m not sure what to think of this movie. The look is really great and it fits because it’s based on a comic. That’s also the reason why I can “excuse” some shots I normally would see as.. well there is no word to say this polite.. bullshit. Anyway, the way it’s done is great, it’s just that I mainly think heroism is such a stupid thing. To die so willingly is never okay, killing isn’t okay, there is nothing glory about war, dieing or killing. It is dirty, horrible and wrong (except natural death because we all have to do die eventually). No matter the course or reason. To tell people glory and remembering things is just for them to fight. No wonder why people see “the Iraq Situation” in this. I didn’t but I personally can’t stand this heroism stuff because it is just stupid.
As for the B-Plot (Wife-story): boring. It takes you out of that horrible (or “glory”) situation and the feeling you get for the people, which was build up from the beginning, after the first “break” I never got into it again. They just had her in it to feed her lines, which you could have given David Wenham doing it an over-voice.
And well I would have thought btw. that guarding the kings body till the end is more heroic then seeing the king actually die.. but hey I don’t write the script!
So if you just want to see fighting, great optic and you don’t hate (even love?) Heroism go and watch it! And even if you don’t like it but like movies and watch how they’re done I would also recommend watching it because it is really a great experience on that matter.
